It’s with broken hearts that we ask you to please pray for us as we start to heal. We are dealing with the sadness of going through another miscarriage.
I find myself filled with thoughts that are racing all over the place. Questions about why us? Why again? To blaming myself for as to why we are dealing with this heartache again. I know it’s not our fault, and that there’s nothing we could have done. That doesn’t change the hurt and the fact that our hearts are in a million little pieces right now.
Evie knew we were expecting before we did. She kept pointing at my tummy saying “Baby! Baby mama!” She was right, we were expecting again.
You start dreaming right away when you find out you are expecting. Thinking about what this little one will be like and look like. We won’t know now. We now face another date in the future that should have been filled with joy, instead it will be a constant reminder of sadness, of what should have been. We will always remember. We now wait a little longer for Evie to be a big sister her on earth. She is going to be an amazing big sister and we can’t wait for that day. For now we find ourselves waiting for the miracle of another rainbow baby some day.
We will work on healing. It’s going to take some time. Please forgive us if we seem distant at all. We just need our space and time. A piece of our hearts is now missing again. It won’t be filled on this side of heaven. We are hurting, and grieving after a miscarriage. Please pray for healing, comfort, and peace.
In time we will be ok. God’s timing is perfect. For now we hold our daughter ever so much closer, and let the grieving process run its course.